I got through material last week.
And that is as impressive as it sounds. Which is not very. I had a big plan for the beginning and this middle grade horror manuscript, and I got through it. I cut, moved, added. I made a huge mess, then cleaned it up.
But I had left myself no notes for the end. No big plan!
At the beginning of last week, with less than 100 pages left to revise, I had no idea what I was really looking for, what I was supposed to be doing.
So revising became reading. I cut a couple little scenes, I took out things that are no longer part of the story, I tried to focus on the mc’s emotions and thoughts to keep that relevant and on track for his character arc…but story-wise, I needed to see where it went.
So I wrote down what happened in each chapter and left future-me notes about what to consider on the next revision pass. Overall, the story is progressing how I want.
I think.
I’m pretty sure.
But I need time to sit with it to know for sure. Sometimes you look back and have a plan. And sometimes you have to read what you wrote to know what to do.
So I’m reading. But not just reading. I’m soaking it in. I’m making mental notes. I’m thinking. I’m giving my brain time to figure out what I need to do. And it will figure it out. I BELIEVE IN MY WEIRD CREATIVE BRAIN.
As much as revising is puzzling the story together…cutting scenes, moving scenes, adding scenes…it’s just as much reading and getting to know what you wrote, in order to help it evolve into the story it was meant to be.
Because revising is evolution.
Though because I got used to this pass being a giant mess, this quieter revising hit me and sent my brain into a panic. As you read last week. THE WHAT AM I DOING PHASE. I have calmed down and recognized that I’m doing what I need to do, that this revision pass will NOT fix all the problems and find all the solutions. This is just another step.
I’m doing this just the way I need to.
I have about 50 pages left to go through. The BIG END is coming and I felt good about that when I drafted it, so…we’ll see.
My hope is to get first pass done this week. But I have other things I have to get done too, so here’s to BELIEVING I CAN!
EVERYONE OUT THERE…
BELIEVE THAT YOU CAN!
And…
Stay weird…
Kathy